[An aggravated sigh.] I don't know. Damned Change of Heart has me messed up in the head. I don't even know who I am, at this point. Everything. Feels. Wrong.

[He's kind of frustrated and starting to lose his composure as a result. But he inhales, forcing that anger back down.]

I hardly see why I should. I've done nothing but be selfish my entire life. I've dismissed the lives of people time and time again, as mere collateral. I have taken blatant advantage of and threatened my family, not once, but multiple times.

The hell that I live in now is entirely self-created.