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[ He's giving a small grin! And he's suddenly moving so the boyfriends are in clear view for a moment, in the saaaame exact moment that he's saying: ]

This is the official announcement that I fully intend to do whatever it takes to marry these two one day.

[ Yep, that's it; he's announcing it on camera.

For all of you to see. ]

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[Ah... Kurama visibly hesitates at the rush of Akira's emotions, his expression crumpling towards apologetic. He's caught off his stride (though he probably shouldn't be, Akira is Akira) by the quick escalation from commentary about not being married to Goro yet to a network-wide declaration of Intent To Marry Them.

He can't help his concerns, anymore than he can entirely help his niggling insecurities.

But he never wanted to cause Akira to feel like that...]

My feelings won't change whether we call ourselves boyfriends, husbands, or mates...

['Bucket list'. Oh. Kurama forgets to breathe for a long moment as he struggles with everything that thought brings up. It's ridiculous, really, that it still upsets him this much, when death won't separate them.]

It... Akira....

[Look, can he just hug Akira?]

[Goro flinches, just barely, at the wave of emotions. His eyes flicker down at the mention of a 'bucket list', of the reminder that Akira's going to be joining them in undeath in only a few years...but it doesn't stop him from reaching out to cup his still living boyfriend's face.]

I would be happy to promise myself to both of you for as long as we keep existing. But, we do also need to consider how we would feel if a situation came up where the legalities mattered, and our personal vows were treated as meaningless.

[ Reasons he hates his emotions being put on display: these two people, right here.

It's not even a lack of trust, but the fact that they have to feel everything, firsthand; they're given the emotions directly, without context, and it leaves way too much room for a misunderstanding.

He lets himself relax into Kurama's arms, his eyes closing as he presses his face into Goro's hand just a bit. ]

I get being worried about that... I did think about that, too. Still...

[ He turns his head to kiss Goro's palm. ]

I shouldn't have jumped into making some announcement about what I intend to do with our future. That was pretty stupid of me. I'm sorry.

Not stupid, just impulsive. For all that's happened, you are still a teenager.

[Kurama hesitates, holding Akira a little tighter. He closes his eyes and reminds himself that he promised.]

...Which is my other concern. You're seventeen, Akira, and still in high school. I would also be happy to spend however long we go on with the two of you, but this may be too soon.

For the future, my only concern is if you might end up sick in a hospital and our promises to each other treated as invalid. Otherwise, I agree with Kurama that it's best to at least wait until you graduate. Your high school career has been complicated enough, as it is.

[ He blinks softly, and then... a soft chuckle slips out. It's quiet, and it's not necessarily one of humor, per se. Which the feeling that lurks around him might make that much clear.

It's something gentle, befitting of his personality as a whole - even if there is sadness and... fear, now. Not a ton, but it's there. It's always been there, whenever he considered what his last day might look like. It's always been there, but never where the boyfriends could feel it. Which is why he's working so hard to yank it back, to stuff it down... and is successful to do so, for the most part.

Well... moving on to explain why he chuckled?? ]

You guys are talking like I said I'd be trying to marry you both tomorrow. I specifically said "one day" - I don't want to rush into the big day itself, at all.

[ He looks down, briefly pressing his forehead against Kurama's shoulder. ]

I'd be more than happy to wait until I'm at least out of high school.

[Kurama runs his fingers gently through Akira's hair, part attempt to soothe that edge of fear, part simple affection, part... comforting himself.]

It was a rather dramatic announcement, Akira.

[He thinks they can be excused a little kneejerk? Especially when everything has happened, to him at least, so fast with them. Kurama glances away, but not nearly quickly enough to hide the flicker of uncertainty that crosses his face.]

I'm glad we're all in agreement. Better not to rush, especially when we have so much time ahead of us.

I'm not worried about how long we have. I'm sure that even centuries down the road, our feelings will be as strong as ever.

[He wraps an arm around each boyfriend, pulling them as close as he can.]

I just want to make sure there's nothing interfering with planning the day itself.

[ He turns his head to nuzzle into Kurama's hand. Though... when he sees that uncertainty cross Kurama's face, worry immediately settles in. He reaches up to take the redhead's hand and move it down, his lips pressing against the knuckles of it as his eyes slide closed. ]

That is what our bond means, after all. [ a smile tugs at his lips, though it's gentle and meant to be reassuring ] The three of us shares an unbreakable bond, as I've heard it specifically called. Though... guess I never did get around to explaining the technical part, huh?

[ He rests his head against Goro's shoulder, some mixed emotions flaring - a twinge of regret, an unhealthy serving of guilt, and... sadness. The reasons for which should be explained with the next sentence out of his mouth: ]

The moment we reached the final confidant rank and became partners, Kurama, it was the same for me as it always is - I know, without a doubt, my bond with you could never shatter. So... in spite of what was happening at that time, the reason I-... You played a big part in me getting through that week. You were the glue that held the pieces together, and...

[ And he should probably stop talking about this, now. There are certain wounds that haven't been properly addressed, and just this much has him feeling as though something's being torn open all over again. He's already trying to fight off the painful ache in his chest that always resurfaces whenever he thinks about weeks two and three of the mall.

The next words are just as honest and genuine as everything else he's said. ]

... The point is, you're both irreplaceable for me. Every time I look to the future, you're both in mine.

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