It's hard to articulate, let me try from another angle
I would like to stop hating them. But I worry that I can not, both because they might expect forgiveness to follow and because I've hated them for so long that I don't know what the alternative would bring next.
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I would like to stop hating them. But I worry that I can not, both because they might expect forgiveness to follow and because I've hated them for so long that I don't know what the alternative would bring next.