[voice] un: masayoshi shido

[makejapangreat]

[He doesn't use video bc quite frankly he looks like Shit. So he uses voice. It's Not Much Better?]

How the fuck do you be a decent person...

No, wait.. [Give him a second.] How do you— know who you are? [???] Recently, something in me changed... was changed, forcefully, and...

[He's lost??? He's quiet for a few moments, before he growls. It sounds more like a groan.]

Nevermind. What is there to do around here?

[get some fucking rest shido????]

Comments

un: alibaba

[notjustahacker]

[ There's a moment in which she hesitates before finally biting the bullet and deciding to actually answer him. ]

You realize noone can really tell you that, right? Gotta figure out who you are and all that on your own.

[ A beat follows this and Futaba sighs softly. ]

There's a lot to do if you just look around. Judging by how you sound, though, i'd hold off on doing anything.

[makejapangreat]

[...oh... it's her. For a few moments he just blinks dumbly at his device. She still has no idea who he is...]

I've been trying. Can't... find any answers.

[god kill him now]

I'm just tired.





[ok shido]

voice; elevencrows

[founderinglight]

[...That's interesting indeed. Izunia doesn't yet know of the connection between Shido and the PThieves, of course, but that is enough by itself to make him wonder.

However, and more immediately concerning - ]

Please get some rest. You sound like you've been hitting the alcohol or something of that nature a bit hard.

[makejapangreat]

I haven't had alcohol in weeks.

[clearly that's what's really gone wrong here]

un: iondeluge (text)

[letsplayer]

okay yoshi

a lot of us have gone through something like that

such is the nature of the multiverse

you're having a midlife crisis

i was infused with alien rock technology and turned immortal against my will

but like

knowing who the fuck you are is a social construct?

which is not to say that it doesn't matter but it doesn't HAVE to?

it's gonna take a while

possibly years

my offer to smoke some weed still stands if you wanna try that but from the looks of it you should probably Not Fucking Do That

[makejapangreat]

[... what the fuck is this message and why is he being called yoshi.

He squints at the screen with a palpable amount of prejudice, and he can maybe glean some useful knowledge amongst all the... rest of it.

also why the fuck is everyone babying him all of a sudden!!]

I'm fine.

[he IS, and he is NOT sulking because grown ass men don't sulk!!!!!]

un: sharpwings

[matchmakes]

From the sounds of it, you should probably be resting instead of directing questions like these to the rest of the station.

... Perhaps a visit to the medical lab wouldn't be remiss?

[makejapangreat]

So what am I supposed to do, just sleep all day?

[i mean, probably. at least until you get better.]

I'll think about it.

voice; un: morganathegreat

[meowna]

Even if you don't know who you are, you can still make who you are. Think about what the kind of person you want to be would do, and do that.

[A surprisingly serious and sincere piece of advice, from someone who's been desperately seeking his own true self for nearly an entire year now. Don't worry, though, he won't maintain that tone for long.]

Have you considered sleeping for a while, maybe? That seems to be the trendy thing to do around here right now.

[makejapangreat]

[Bitterly:] I have no idea what kind of person I want to be.

[He might as well mentally be out on a raft in the middle of the endless ocean, sloshing waves everywhere and no land in sight.]

...trendy? [?????]

voice (un: konawa talimo)

[dragonmouth]

I'd suggest waiting until you can actually stand before going on any epic quests of self-enlightenment.

Let's see... I know someone here already mentioned the infirmary, but have you tried anything else?

[makejapangreat]

I can stand fine. [...he can stand for a period of time without falling over? It counts.]

And all your concerns are misguided, anyway.

Voice: Thunderboy

[superstylishsquid]

Maybe you should think about this after you've gotten some rest. Not to put to find a point on it, but you kinda sound like death wormed over.

[makejapangreat]

I should've went with text. Maybe then I'd be getting some actual answers.

text; un: talon

[honededge]

so how infected did that wound get that you're this delirious

and for the record, imo you know who you are by what you do when your back is to the wall

there's a library, if you're into reading. some greenhouse spaces, a nice beach outside, some pretty sweet vantage points around the roof and viewing deck. or the hot tub, but im forbidding you from going in there until you've seen a doctor or me about that wound.

[makejapangreat]

[heckin EXCUSE he is not delirious?!

only he kind of is.

at least this guy is providing him with some actual useful feedback? although he's... being forbidden from the hot tub by this guy? what the fuck.

ANYWAY, HE'S GONNA GO SEE YOU NOW.]

[rhododendronhoney]

...it doesn't really sound like you're in the best condition to have this discussion. [Who even is this guy, she wonders]

[makejapangreat]

Can someone just answer my questions instead of scolding me? [:T!!!!!!]

text; Jetshard

[dubiouslychthonic]

o)+ WeLL for a start there's a LittLe hobby I like to call "not bLatantly ignoring avaiLable medicaL care."

o)+ If you haven't been seen to yet, aLLow me to add my voice to the chorus imPLoring you to stoP in at the medicaL bay at Literally any Point.

[makejapangreat]

[guess who is getting tired of being told to go to the medical bay Real Fast

so instead

he's just gonna be a jerk.]

The hell are you typing like that for?

text; luciferskylight

[burninglight]

You consider what you did or who you were and examine if that's the sort of person you still want to be. Understanding who one truly is, especially after some sort of emotional upheaval, is no easy task. It takes time, work, and the support of those willing to help someone that may not have been a good person in the past.

Also, you sound fucking horrible. I'm aware half the station's said as much, I just thought I'd drive the point home.

[makejapangreat]

[The advice has him quiet. Does he still want to be the person who he used to be? No, certainly not. But for selfish reasons, mostly. Having a functioning guilty conscience sucks if you know the things you're doing are fucking awful.

Yet some part of him is disturbed— again, selfish motivations. Where does the selfishness end? Is there darkness so deeply entwined with his soul that not even a Change of Heart could rid him of all of it? Is that why he feels torn between being good because his heart insists that that's what's right, and between saying fuck everyone, no one here gives an honest shit about him anyway, and no one ever would so why the fuck should he care what happens to any of them?

The advice has him so deep in thought that he reads the last bit without really feeling the sting of being told he sounds horrible, Yet Again. Every time he starts thinking of this, everything gets muddled inside of him and he just feels so fucking lost and it's the worst feeling in the world and he hates it.]

I'm hardly a good person now, either.

[The voice comes out a bit stronger, a growl of frustration with layers of bitterness and stubbornness and god knows what else. It's almost a challenge. You don't want to be one of those supportive someones to an awful man who won't even fully accept that he's been made better, do you?]

VOICE; quicksilver80

[photoshooter]

[Prompto doesn't even want to appear on the same post as Ardyn, but even when he tries to put the question out of his mind, he finds he can't just ignore the poor guy.]

...Well, what do you consider 'decency?' Did your idea of that change with the other thing?

[makejapangreat]

Drastically. And decent as in...

[As in... what the fuck does he mean by decent...]

Good.

[ah well that sure clears it up doesn't it]

[text] un:kana

[cyclicalconcept]

I know how you feel. Having something in you be




are you all right? You don't sound very good.

[makejapangreat]

[Ah... this girl again. Though the first bit is... unexpected? Why is it cut off?]

I'm... a little ill. [a """little"""] I'll be fine.

Voice: BaiLin

[fistsofchange]

Help people, and don't get mad if you don't get anything for it. That's worked pretty well for me.

Are you alright?

[makejapangreat]

[... that seems like a good place to start as any.]

Just slightly under the weather. Don't concern yourself with me. ["""slightly"""]

private voice; purrusu

[beguiledcard]

Having trouble sleeping?

[makejapangreat]

[oh... it's him...]

... I'm fine. [if he keeps saying it maybe it will become true]